YWednesday, August 24, 2005
I finally am free and bored enough to blog..haha..
Today's my birthday! hehe...and it has been good lately...yepz!
Everyone unexpected msged me..very coool..haha..it must be really great being 18..going out wit shi..sue..peiyi..and i tink jaren and kengkee today..duno wat's goin on wit him..he didnt talk to me... =(
Anyways..our group did well for the projects so far..so all the stress etc was well worth it! hehe.. I havent been feeling so damn good after so long..happy and fulfilled..heh.
Dad have also been niceto me..i think he finally realise that I am for real and not juz foolin around in school..yepz!~
My sis and I are fine i guess..there's nothing much to be said cuz we dun spend much time together...
So sorry Kak Sha if i offended you..heh...it was out of impulse..anyhowz..yea...sorry.
Its a good day today..like really been a good day so far..i'm not expecting anything else..just living for the moment..hehe
IM 18!!!!!! WOOOHHHOOO!!!!!
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YSaturday, August 13, 2005
Took a break from project work..lucky for me i got the time to blog..heh. extremely crap. Thats wat im feeling rite now..and i look like crap.haha..nothings new actually..i just cant wait for the Sem break.....WHEE~~~!
Hm..i worked midnyt shift last nyte..extremely exhausting......tsk. and now im in the lab with no sleep since 2300hrs... (c wat i mean by no life?) anyways, it seems like everyone is rushing to meet the deadline..i can feel the tension in tis lab..its scary how evry1 look so tense..but amusing at the same time..bcoz ppl might be looking at me tat way too! *laughs*
Anyways, friday was kinda a sucky day...seriously...im soooo gona flunk my BCS paper..and on top of tat, he actually saw me walking pass him in Tamp! n i was like clad in a huge sweatshirt and superr baggy jeans....YIKES! i was really2 at my worst..n he just had to bump into me in tis state..how unlucky!
And o yeah..i read frenster abt the month tat ur born and how it roughly tells the kinda person you are.. well here it is..
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outgoing personality. takes risks. feeds onattention. no self control. kind hearted. selfconfident. loud and boisteroius. VERY revengeful.easy to get along with and talk to. hasan "everything's peachy" attitude. loves screaming,talking and singing. loves music. daydreamer.easily distracted. loves to flirt. hates beingleft out.hates not being trusted. BIG imagination. loves tobe loved. hates studying. in need of "thatsomeone". longs for freedom. rebellious whewithheld or restricted. lives by "no pain no gain"caring. always a suspect. playful.mysterious. "charming" or "beautiful" to a specailperson. stubborn. courious. independent. strongwilled. a fighter.
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it's so alike to the kinda person i am...amazed!
I have been blabbering loadsa abt sch and project and guys...so yeah..im gona complain about my sis..she's somehow distant from me. it could be because of her relationshp problem..but its kinda unfair dun u tink? to neglect me and see me and just talk to me when she feels like talking...i've nerver felt so unwanted by her before..and today, she just told me to take care and study hard....she said if anythg happen to her..she wans me to tel my mum tat she owe lots to kak sha..wth. she signed off tellin me tat she loves me..(i duno whether its true).... I get frustrated each time i c her...it's like she's a diff person and i duno her anymore and it aggrevates each and every nerve thats working in my body...really..
im dissapointed by the fact that i could look up to her...so high...but then she's proving me wrong..that she's weak..and independable.
I really duno how to converse wit her nemore..im just too disappointed to even try to open up to her.. what has happened to her? why is she letting something SO UNCERTAIN bring herself down? why cant she just pick herself up and face it and move on? SHYT HAPPENS.
I believe that we should all just accept it and work around it...all tis SHYT actually makes you a better person right?
it will actually define who u are..in time.
so why keep fretting??
That's wat i've learnt and managed to accept..n i hope you guys and my sis especially can juz fathom this and do it.
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YWednesday, August 03, 2005
PROJECT is superr not getting anywer near completion.
MOTHAtooting crap!
What can I do now?
Do my project and my head is about to EXPLODE..
I'm very pissed and sad....
Papa had to have his foot amputated coz of his Kidney Failure..
I'm feeling very sorry that he have to suffer his life this way...
Life like really stinkz rite now.
Crap.
Neways, I heard a nice song by Alanis Morissete..
21 things i want in a lover...NIce
Phucking projects just makes my day more lifeless..ASS
Give me some Life plzzz
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Do you derive joy when someone else succeeds?
Do you not play dirty when engaged in competition?
Do you have a big intellectual capacity but know
That it alone does not equate wisdom?
Do you see everything as an illusion? But enjoy it even though you are not of it?
Are you both masculine and feminine? politically aware?
And don't believe in capital punishment?
These are 21 things that I want in a lover
Not necessarily needs but qualities that I prefer
Do you derive joy from diving in and seeing that
Loving someone can actually feel like freedom? are you funny? à la self-deprecating? l
ike adventure? and have many formed opinions?
These are 21 things that I want in a lover
Not necessarily needs but qualities that I prefer
I figure I can describe it since I have a choice in the matter
These are 21 things I choose to choose in a lover
I'm in no hurry
I could wait forever
I'm in no rush cuz I like being solo
There are no worries and certainly no pressure in the meantime
I'll live like there's no tomorrow
Are you uninhibited in bed? more than three times a week?
Up for being experimental? are you athletic?
Are you thriving in a job that helps your brother?
are you not addicted? ...curious and communicative...
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YTuesday, August 02, 2005
Im feelin motha****in sick..soo many ass loads of projects! dumbfreakinass.
Neways, yeah...i'm kinda like gettin the hold of livin life tis way..like erm..with all this distraction and stuff.
Sometimes it's just best if you learn to let go you know..and when the time comes that you really do let go..
It actually feels freakin good. So, yeah..im fine..not GREAT but fine.
i was kinda like readin his email..and i saw how un-interested in me he is..heh.
fool.
neways, all the deadlines hafta be met next week..
i officially have no life.
heh.
CraploAd of stuff but i still get to unwind bylooking around for cute guys..
neways, yeah.
He's cute lah..and NO ppl i dun like him..just find him cute.
haven't met any cute guy in my course before..heh
he's like..sweet.
i dared myself to look at him just now..
(yikes..i sound so despo and bimbotic= in which i'm not.)REST-ASSURED
it's not obvious i think..heh.
but he IS cute...my source of distraction in school and at least i have something to look forward to in Lecture..hehe
he doesn't have to look at me..cuz it's mere infatuation..
he's chinese..the first i sat my eyes on..COOL.
but yeah..im not changing my mind abt stayin single.
im just tellin u guys about how cute tis guy is...he looks clean and sweet. NIcE.
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